Do you ever despair when once again revisited by old ghosts? When parts of you that you thought you had worked through long ago, rear up again, as powerfully as ever?

Although I hate and avoid the word "triggering," it can in fact feel like being shot again, by an age old "enemy."

Does it make you wonder "what is wrong with me?" Or, is all this therapy "not working?"

Well, even those of us who have worked on our trauma for years and decades (or what seems like millennia!) have these episodes.

This video was shot in my hotel room in Boston on my last day, so housekeeping would not be coming. The bed was unmade, and I wondered if I should actually film this with an unmade bed in the background. Not too professional, right? Well I decided to tell it like it is, to be real, as this video is in fact about "dirty laundry," showing the unsavory, disheveled parts to reassure you, even we old-timers have our moments!

Thanks for your interest in Nothing!

In his masterwork, The Archaeology of Mind, neuroscience luminary, researcher and animal lover Jaak Panksepp wrote that a brief interlude of tickling of his lab rats, and a single bout of rat "laughter", activated a neurochemical and affective change in the little creatures, and even sprouted new neurons in their little hippocampi! And as we know, their brains are a lot like ours.

In this video, we make a brief visit to the world of play, so elusive or missing in the world of neglect, and discover that there is actually even a brain region designed by nature to mediate what is in fact a vital function.

And of course the redundant discovery, that if you, like me, thought you were "missing that gene”, it is not your fault. Again, something was missing.

Thanks for joining us for episode 14!

Hope to see you in Boston!

In this episode we discuss the neglected topic of aging: the aging body, the aging brain, sexuality as we age.

Another of those seemingly taboo subjects that it seems there is no one to ask, or no one reliable, and one might be too shame or afraid to tell. Perhaps you can be slightly more aware of what to expect, and what is quite normal and expectable than I was!