Trigger Warning:

This episode contains discussions of miscarriage, pregnancy loss, near-death experiences, illness, and identity grief. Listener discretion is advised, especially for those currently navigating pregnancy, recent loss, or sensitive to themes of physical and emotional trauma.

Summary:

In this season finale episode, Sarah welcomes energetic healer and dear friend Phoebe Martelli to explore the profound intersections of miscarriage, identity, healing, and spiritual awakening. Together, they reflect on the transformative experiences of loss and rebirth—both personal and collective—and how spirit babies can serve as catalysts for deep healing, purpose, and becoming.

Phoebe shares her journey through miscarriage, her awakening to energy work, and how spirit babies have guided her path. Sarah and Phoebe revisit their work together, the creation of Poppy, and the sacred, sometimes chaotic unfolding of life, grief, and motherhood. They offer a deeply moving conversation on letting go of old identities, welcoming new visions, and how the spirit world continuously shapes our lives.

Today on MotherGrief:

• Phoebe’s miscarriage as a spiritual awakening and catalyst for healing
• The role of spirit babies in reshaping identity, gifts, and life purpose
• How loss can lead to energetic and physical completion
• Sarah’s journey through mold illness, energetic healing, and the creation of Poppy
• The sacred unraveling and reinvention of identity in motherhood
• A guided visualization for releasing old selves and stepping into who you're becoming
• Energetic updates on spirit babies, collective shifts, and the future of conscious parenting

Connect with Phoebe:

• Instagram: @hello.phoebemarie

Connect with Sarah:

• Instagram: @sarahsaintjohn
• Mama Nervous System Reset: https://theuncensoredempath.com/mama-nervous-system-reset

Trigger Warning:

This episode contains discussions of parental death, terminal illness, and anticipatory grief. Please take care while listening, especially if you are in the midst of fresh grief or navigating similar losses.

In this deeply heartfelt conversation, Sarah welcomes Tara Accardo, grief and transformational life coach, and host of the Life With Grief podcast. Tara shares her story of devastating loss—losing both parents to cancer within six months, followed by a traumatic birth experience—and how she slowly began to rebuild her sense of self and safety through it all. Together, Sarah and Tara explore the weight of mothering without your own mother, the experience of becoming an adult orphan, and the layered grief that surfaces during major milestones like childbirth and parenting. With honesty and grace, Tara offers insight into how we can begin to feel empowered again after a profound loss—without bypassing the pain.

Whether you're early in grief or years down the path, this episode offers a compassionate reflection on what it means to hold both love and sorrow as lifelong companions.

Today on MotherGrief:

• How grief changes your identity and internal landscape
• The loneliness of becoming an adult orphan and the redefinition of safety
• Moving through the “what ifs” and the self-blame that often accompanies loss
• What it means to keep a parent’s memory alive through parenting
• How loss reshapes the way we love, trust, and show up in the world

Connect with Tara:

• Instagram: @lossesbecomegains | @lifewithgriefpodcast
• Website: lossesbecomegains.com
• Podcast: Life With Grief Podcast
• TikTok: @lifewithgriefpodcast

Connect with Sarah:

• Instagram: @sarahsaintjohn
• Mama Nervous System Reset: https://theuncensoredempath.com/mama-nervous-system-reset

Today, Sarah offers listeners another tender and deeply personal episode. She opens her heart to share the grief of losing her two brothers, Jordan and Joe, and how their absence continues to shape her experience of motherhood. She reflects on what it means to mother without the presence of the very people who helped shape her and and how that loss quietly echoes through everyday moments. This episode holds space for all who have experienced sibling loss and are now raising children while carrying that layered grief. Whether your loss is fresh or decades old, Sarah’s reflections are a balm for the quiet ache you might carry.

Today on MotherGrief:

• How Sarah’s parenting is shaped by unresolved grief and lingering questions
• The longing and wondering of who her brothers would’ve been as uncles
• The visible and invisible ways grief shows up in her daughters’ lives
• The profound truth that we can grieve people we never met
• Creating a legacy through storytelling, rituals, and remembrance
• Navigating the duality of grief and joy in motherhood

Reflection Prompts from Sarah:

• What parts of your siblings do you wish your child could know?
• How has their loss shaped who you are as a mother?
• Is there a story or memory you want to share today to keep them alive?

Connect with Sarah:

• Instagram: @sarahsaintjohn
• Mama Nervous System Reset: https://theuncensoredempath.com/mama-nervous-system-reset