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A new hope, a new nightmare.
Nothing is as it seems in New Hope, Indiana - the land of curly-haired designer dogs, bunco nights, and impeccably manicured lawns. Where the good kids from good families live, except....it has a dark side.
Wanting the good life for her sons, Holly Simon stretched to afford a home in picture-perfect suburbia. Her dream is destroyed the night her son is found in the neighborhood park, unresponsive but alive, after an overdose on prescription drugs. Forced to navigate the terrifying gauntlet of addiction and treatment, she uncovers a maze of secrets and lies that rocks her to her core.
Can she find a way through before her heart shatters again? How far will she have to go to save her son? Back to Before explores one mother's roller coaster ride of hope and heartache, and her herculean effort to rebuild and heal herself and those she loves most.
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