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Jack Story
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Axel Desarden
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There are hundreds of stories about enduring hardships and triumphs in the inner city. I have spent more than 20 years in silence identifying my patterns and behaviors in hopes of forebearing my true nature. In this nonfiction narrative confessional—Axel Desarden a Bronx born Puerto Rican details his struggles from the innocence of childhood freedoms, through a distorted figment, engulfed in confusion and contradiction.
My thirst for identity formation grew beyond my conscious control with an attraction to a falsehood of pride and prejudice. Though emotionally stunted and underdeveloped, his search for what once was, never seized. This book will stretch your emotional measures, so strap in!
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