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Rachael Maddox
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Rachael Maddox
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Secret Bad Girl is a deeply healing memoir and trauma resolution guide for women who've suffered secret rapes or sexual abuse - and want both stories and instructions for being set free.
Rachael Maddox bravely shares her own story of statutory rape and recovery, inviting readers into the possibility that their current sex issues, fears, stunted confidence or self-worth troubles, private addictions or private depressions, or impossible-seeming dreams could in fact be resulting from unresolved sexual trauma. There's a myth that so many women bear the burden of in today's world. The myth is that we're bad for the violations that happen to us as well as the mess of the aftermath of those abuses. Secret Bad Girl not only dispels this myth but illuminates exactly how you can transcend it, embodying the aliveness, resilience, and vitality available to you.
Secret Bad Girl is like works by Eve Ensler mixed with Peter Levine and a dash of Andrea Gibson. Stories. Science. Poetry. Most people never resolve their trauma because the fear of entering into the territory of violation is so abrasive that they freeze. Rachael Maddox understands this fear and meets her listeners in a place of compassion and grace so that they can move into their long-awaited healing.
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- Amazon Customer
- 04-08-24
Her willingness to get vunerable
I appreciate to vulnerability to get emotionally, spiritually, and physically naked with the work, the ugly, but beautiful full circle for us secret bad girls.
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- jen of eve
- 08-02-18
Raw, beautiful truths abound in understanding embodied trauma
Rachel’s bravery in sharing all too familiar early childhood/adolescent sexual encounters & the imprint they leave in the body & psyche has been an illuminating gift. I bow to her & highly recommend this work to anyone on the journey towards liberation.
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- Lynn Baskfield
- 08-01-18
Powerful voice for healing
This book empowers women to name trauma, to reclaim voice, body and soul, and find freedom and healing through truth telling and support of others. Touching story, practical ways to break through the trauma spell, a call to honor our deepest needs and hungers.
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- Ritual Craftsman
- 07-25-18
This audiobook changes lives. Period.
Rachael's story, combined with the action steps she recommends, have made tangible positive impact on my life and on the lives of the many, many people I've recommended this audiobook to. She vulnerably reveals her own pain and process of healing and transformation, so others can learn, be inspired, and take action to create similar results in their lives. Trauma doesn't have to be forever. This audiobook can be one of the first steps towards resolving your trauma once and for all. Always remember: You're worth it.
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- Amazon Customer
- 03-06-19
Whole-hearted and whole-souled
It is evident and admirable how much of herself Rachael has poured into this book. She has done so much transformative work, and in this book she passes on the wisdom she gained, along with tools others can access for their own transformation. It is honest and well-written, and contains so much caring and hope for the reader.
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- Mara G Glatzel
- 07-30-18
A powerful, life altering memoir & guide
I love nothing more than a book narrated by the author, and Secret Bad Girl DELIVERS. The book itself is a fantastic testament to the healing power of the human spirit when light is welcomed into dark spaces where shame used to occupy. I own the book and have read it several times, so I knew I would love the content. What I didn't know was how much more amazing it would be having Rachael read her words to me. There is something specific that takes places when stories like this one are spoken aloud. It feels like sitting next to your best friend as you finally find the courage to give voice to the places that have been voiceless. You'll want to download this book ASAP. You won't regret it for a second.
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- Kat Burns
- 08-08-18
Another Bad Girl
Your story is my story, too. Thank you for your beautiful, fierce, loving honesty. Your true words are a much-needed healing balm.
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- Cristina
- 01-15-23
Amazing!!!
This book was so well done. I am so grateful to Rachel for allowing herself to be so vulnerable in telling her story to help others with similar experiences to heal, forgive and move on. Thank you Rachel,
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- Damont and Deidre Smith
- 02-09-19
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There’s an old saying.....”Eat the meat but throw away the 🦴 bones” ... I don’t agree with every method she use such as spiritual guides, etc. But neither less, her book provided great content to overcoming. No, I DON’T recommend this book for TRUE DELIVERANCE
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- Kate Callahan
- 08-03-21
No trauma resulution here
This book is little about trauma resolution and a lot about having sex with all kinds of people.It is distasteful and vulgar. A lot of coursing. Disappointed with the content.
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