
The Hell of Allegiance
My Living Nightmare of Being Gang Raped and Held for Ten Days by the British Army
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About this listen
Charmaine Maeer says she was beaten and repeatedly raped during just 10 days service as a soldier at Whittington Barracks in Lichfield, Staffordshire, England.
This audiobook was first published in paperback format in 2008, and although a very harrowing and deserved story, it never received the attention it deserved due to the nature of the claims made by Charmaine Mary Nona Maeer.
Rather than go into harrowing detail in this synopsis, here are details of UK media coverage that fell on deaf ears:
News of the World - Two-page spread on November 10, 2002 - "Gang Raped on My First Day in the Army"
Real Life Magazine - "Raped on My First Day in the Army"
Carlton Central TV News - November 1, 2011
New Woman Magazine - February 21, 2003
Caters News Agency - Contracted Charmaine for TV on February 18, 2003
South West News Service
Kilroy- Now You're Talking! TV show
Bella Magazine - Full feature
ITN Channel Four News - November 15, 2002
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- Kelly
- 06-11-21
ridiculous
Very sad that anyone would believe this story and would give it a rating of 5 stars. I only listened till the end because I was fascinated with the inaccuracies. The conspiracy that she alleges between the military enlisted, NCO's, officers, CID, MP's, civilian police, lawyers, doctors is beyond reality. This is a slap in the face to all victims of abuse.
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