• Transgender Day of Remembrance - Blessed are the Trans Kids
    Dec 5 2024

    I am still here. And so are you.

    This episode is the first following the American election of 2024, which was upsetting and disappointing for many of us. In it, Elle talks about Transgender Day of Remembrance, and provides a recording of a speech she gave at a in person gathering in her area. In it, she also reflects on surviving, thriving, and still showing up even during difficult times.

    • Blessed are the Trans Kids, Esther's poem based on The Beatitudes
    • Therapy, a poem by Nayyira Waheed
    • A brief history of Transgender Day of Remembrance


    As always, to learn more about Elle and her work, or to explore the possibility of accessing psychotherapy from her, please visit her website at ⁠⁠⁠⁠www.estherloewen.com⁠⁠⁠⁠.

    For constructive feedback on the show, to ask questions, or to get access to the Fierce Femmes support group, please email ⁠⁠⁠⁠twatpodcasting@gmail.com⁠

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    31 mins
  • Women's Athletics - A Discussion of Maggie Mertens' Book Better, Faster, Farther
    Oct 8 2024

    In this belated episode, Elle talks about a book published just this past summer on the history of women's running. Better Faster Farther, by Maggie Mertens, explores the myths that have restricted women athletes access to competitive sports (namely running) and that continue to threaten them to this day. Read or learn more about it here and here. Included in this conversation are reflections on trans athletes competing with women, as well as intersex athletes who sometimes do not discovery they are intersex until being tested as part of Olympic protocols.

    Some of the resources referenced in the show include:

    • Erin in the Morning's reporting on Blaire Fleming, the volleyball player from San Jose State University who became the center of a hate campaign in October 2024.
    • Bobbi Gibb, Marathoner
    • Fierce Femmes Support Group

    As always, to learn more about Elle and her work, or to explore the possibility of accessing psychotherapy from her, please visit her website at ⁠⁠⁠www.estherloewen.com⁠⁠⁠.

    For constructive feedback on the show, to ask questions, or to get access to the Fierce Femmes support group, please email ⁠⁠⁠twatpodcasting@gmail.com⁠

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    44 mins
  • Queer Experiences of Religious Harm - a sermon by Pastor Elle
    Sep 13 2024

    This week's episode is a recording of a sermon/lecture that Elle gave back in May at Paradox Church in Redlands (see their website here). In the speech, Elle reflects on some of the unique ways that queer people are often harmed by especially high control religions. As a spiritual person and one who practiced rigid religion for many years, Elle has experiences with both being negatively impacted by religious trauma and also being a perpetrator as a Christian leader.

    • Watch a video version of the sermon with Elle's visuals here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gZpnn09daAY&t=14s
    • Learn more about Kevin Garcia's work on religious harm, including his book "Bad Theology Kills" here: https://www.thekevingarcia.com/
    • To learn more about inviting Elle to come speak for your event or organization, please visit her website: https://estherloewen.com/speaking

    As always, to learn more about Elle and her work, or to explore the possibility of accessing psychotherapy from her, please visit her website at ⁠⁠www.estherloewen.com⁠⁠.

    For constructive feedback on the show, to ask questions, or to get access to the Fierce Femmes support group, please email ⁠⁠twatpodcasting@gmail.com⁠

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    50 mins
  • The Outrage News Cycle & Trans Identities
    Sep 3 2024

    In this edition of the show, Elle talks about the idea of the 24/7 news cycle, and how it creates predictable waves of outrage throughout our culture, and into our lives. She reflects on the common denominators of the cycle as described by author Mark Manson (from the Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*ck) in a ⁠block post⁠, and explores how these dynamics are uniquely experienced by trans and gender expansive people. Elle talks about her experiences of feeling pressure to "have a take" when the news cycle hits, and anxiety about how that take or lack of a take may be received.

    Some of the resources discussed in the show include:

    • ⁠Better, Faster, Farther,⁠ by Maggie Mertens
    • The work of ⁠Erin in the Morning⁠
    • ⁠Church Redwood Trees Scandal⁠

    As always, to learn more about Elle and her work, or to explore the possibility of accessing psychotherapy from her, please visit her website at ⁠www.estherloewen.com⁠.

    For constructive feedback on the show, to ask questions, or to get access to the Fierce Femmes support group, please email ⁠twatpodcasting@gmail.com⁠


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    42 mins
  • Interview with Dr. Jill Hingston about Trans Youth
    Aug 27 2024

    Dr. Jill Hingston, LMFT is a psychotherapist, fierce ally of the trans community, and brilliant queer cisgender woman who currently serves as the Director of Behavioral Health Services at the LGBTQ Center of the Desert in Palm Springs. During this episode, Elle talks with Jill about her extensive experience working especially with transgender youth. Reach out to Jill via contact info on The Center website.

    Contact Elle via email at twatpodcasting@gmail.com to learn more about the support group Fierce Femmes, and to get involved.

    If you are in need of psychotherapy services and would like to talk with Elle about what therapy would look like with her, learn more and contact her on her website: (www.estherloewen.com).

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    46 mins
  • Taking Breaks
    Aug 20 2024

    In this episode, Elle addresses the elephant in the room and plans for the show going forward. She furthermore reflects on the many kinds of breaks we all take through our lives and transitions. This latest installment touches on themes of anxiety, trust, mindfulness practices, vacations, privilege and class, and of course transgender identities.

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    To join the Fierce Femmes support group on the 2nd & 4th Tuesdays of every month at 6:30pm PST, please email Elle at twatpodcasting@gmail.com.

    To offer questions, constructive feedback, and other connections to the show, use the same email :)

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    44 mins
  • How to Be a Girl (or the Socialization of Gender)
    May 23 2024

    After an unplanned hiatus, Elle talks about the learned nature of gender, how gender is socialized, and the validity of gender and sex being changed and performed. She talks about the reasons we might choose to do gender in different ways, including safety, joy, and internal personality alignment.

    Some of the resources and additional materials referenced and recommended from this episode include:

    • Abigail Thorn from Philosophy Tube on Judith Butler's ⁠Philosophy (ABSOLUTELY BRILLIANCE)
    • Dylan Mulvaney - Days of Girlhood
    • Lizzo - "Like a Girl"
    • Judith Butler and Gender Trouble. Another piece by Judy in a recent NYT article.
    • Fucking Harrison Butker and his Sexist Speech

    Reach out to Elle at twatpodcasting@gmail.com with questions, constructive feedback, and questions.

    To learn about what psychotherapy with Elle might look like, please visit her website: https://estherloewen.com/ and click "Therapy".

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    53 mins
  • Tattoos
    Apr 10 2024

    In this week's installment, Elle talks about a recent tattoo she got commemorating her graduation from therapy school. In addition, she reflects on some of the history and conversation in and around body modifications, including the perjorative accusation of "mutilation". Elle references her tattoo artist, Adrianne Marcella, as well as the work that she got done on her forearm for her transition ceremony in 2022 (read more here).

    Please take a minute to send Elle an email at twatpodcasting@gmail.com to ask questions, make constructive suggestions, or name possible guests.

    To inquire about psychotherapy with Elle, please fill out a request form on her website at: www.estherloewen.com


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    34 mins