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Christine Rendel
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Known for the wit of her writing, Catherine Cookson was the UK's most widely read novelist during her lifetime. When her Estate discovered this never-before-published memoir in the attic of her home, it was an astonishing find. Before I Go is the definitive story of her life, in the author's own candid words.
While Cookson had authored previous autobiographies, none have truly touched upon the tragedy and personal anguish she experienced until now. For the first time, she reveals the worst years of her life - her constant battles with illness and a series of devastating miscarriages, the damaging jealousy of her friend and her struggle to be taken seriously as a writer. But what shines through most is her strength in the face of adversity, her deep love for her husband, Tom, the solace she found in her art and her unmistakable character. Before I Go is an inspiring story of resilience and a must for any Cookson fan.
©2017 The Trustees of the Catherine Cookson Trust. (P)2017 Brilliance Publishing, Inc., all rights reserved.Listeners also enjoyed...
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- Martha Sommers
- 10-12-22
Before I Go
This book touched me in so many ways. I never experienced the amount of illness or completely horrendous medical abuse.
So much of what she shared resonates with me. I absolutely adored my husband who was as kind and loving as her Tom.
If you’ve experienced the hurt of those who were supposed to be your family and friends I believe you will be touched by Mrs Cookson’s book. I will be looking for more of them.
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- L Met
- 04-11-25
Just an enjoyable book
I liked the narration it was like listening to a favourite Aunt. Very relaxing. I don’t know why reviews need to be 15 words or more.
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- Jordan Max
- 04-11-18
loved it! Thank you Catherine Cookson!
beautiful account to a lifelong struggle of survival. Catherine Cookson was a fighter and a hero in her own way.
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- Kindle Customer
- 05-14-19
Love Catherine
I absolutely love Catherine's stories. Sad she had such a tough life. So Happy she at least had true love. RIP to them both.
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- Peter Adleman
- 09-12-21
An enthralling look at that time period
An interesting look into her life and struggles. Some parts of the story are slightly disjointed, but considering that the author was blind while writing it thst is to be expected
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