
Comfort in Chaos
My Story of Breaking Free From the Normalization of Abuse
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Rachael Endrizzi
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By:
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Jamie Lynn Kiles
About this listen
"He will kill you."
It was a natural progression as I twisted beneath the full weight of his straddle. I begged for oxygen as his massive hands wrapped around my neck, and his fingernails dug into my throat. From the outside, life seems perfect. Many are elated, and some are envious that Jamie, a hard-working single mother, has finally found true love. But, terrified and alone after her fiancé attempts to end her life, what will she do next?
Join Jamie on this moving journey of self-discovery as she:
- Emerges from the abuse fog.
- Recognizes the life-damaging effects of generational and childhood trauma.
- Discovers the influence that past psychological violence has on her choice of partners.
- Fights for her life and discovers the freedom in leaving behind the comfortable chaos.
A must-listen for anyone who's experienced a toxic relationship, relational aggression, or intimate partner violence!
©2021 Jamie Kiles (P)2022 Jamie KilesListeners also enjoyed...
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