
I'm Dying Up Here
Heartbreak and High Times in Standup Comedy's Golden Era
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William Dufris
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They were arguably the funniest people of their generation, living in a late-night world of sex, drugs, dreams, and laughter. For one brief shining moment, standup comics were as revered as rock stars. It was Comedy Camelot but, of course, it couldn't last.
In the late 1970s, William Knoedelseder was a cub reporter assigned to cover the burgeoning local comedy scene for the Los Angeles Times. He wrote the first major newspaper profiles of Jay Leno, David Letterman, Andy Kaufman, and others. He got to know many of them well. And so he covered the scene too when the comedians--who were not paid for performing at the career-making-or-breaking venue called the Comedy Store---tried to change an exploitative system and incidentally tore apart their own close-knit community.
Now Knoedelseder has gone back to interview the major participants to tell the whole story of that golden age and of the strike that ended it. Full of revealing portraits of many of the best-known comedic talents of our age, I'm Dying Up Here is also a poignant tale of the price of success and the terrible cost of failure - professional and moral.
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- DDub
- 08-10-22
Great book, Great narrator
For all those who talked bad about the narrator... I couldn't disagree more. loved the book. loved the narration. I will listen again. I am a comedy need, a standup comedian (www.whitedewaynecomedy.com), and a comedy instructor, so this was very interesting for me the obvious reasons.
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- JIM HOWELL
- 08-17-24
Well-researched and delivered
The happy-go-lucky lilt of the narrator was perfect for this kind of tale, which basically was funny people in an ever – increasingly unfunny situation. Definitely was not a “happily ever after” story, but one that has been lost in the annals of time, which made it an enjoyable and revealing read. Those who wondered how the comedy boom got its roots will find out here – although in the end, they may regret learning about the components of the dark underbelly of it.
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- Amazon Customer
- 06-28-21
Fascinating true story!
From start to finish the whole story is completely captivating. I am a stand-up comedian of no real importance but I don't think you even have to be to enjoy this piece of American culture.
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- Ben I.
- 08-20-15
Great Book
If you ever wanted to know why the Comedy Store is so relevant to the history of comedy this is a book for you. Most of the comics famous today have a Mitzi Shore story of some sort and this explains why. Being from the Midwest I had no idea who Steve Lubetkin was and am sad now that I didn't.
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- sarah a phetteplace
- 06-03-18
great depiction of real stand-up.
I loved it! I'm a borderline obsessive fan of stand-up. this book fed my osession.
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- mrieke
- 05-02-15
Very good despite a couple of errors
Having listened to many of Marc Marron's interviews with Comedy Store veterans, I liked hearing the venue's early history. The errors were 2 mentions of Billy Crystal with a role in "Mary Hartman, Mary Hartman" (it was "Soap"); and a mention of the '80s show "Saturday Night" being on NBC (it was on ABC
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- DB
- 03-15-18
Nails on a chalkboard narration.
This is hands-down the most irritating narrator I've come across. The cadence is unbearable, and the only way I made it through without abandoning it altogether was to speed it up, which helped to elide some of the more ridiculous and unnecessary emphasis throughout. Will make a point to avoid this narrator in the future.
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- Anonymous User
- 11-29-20
Eff Ned Mencia
Good book, great story. The narrator could have been a little better. I would recommend for comedy fans. Especially since the recent Mike Binder 6 part series on the Comedy Store.
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- @laudpatty
- 10-18-22
Fans of "Golden Era" stand-up, take notice!
... and if you enjoyed the Showtime TV adaptation and are curious to know which real persons the character composites are based on, you will also enjoy this book. The only tricky part is that with composites, the characters are based on several people, who may or may not have even done any of the things their imaginary counterparts do on TV - and that can make it a bit confusing.
I only realized more than ¾ into the story that the show's two *main characters* are based on a duo act that the book only mentions once! But if you're ready to forget what you thought you learned from the show, this book is at turns funny and sad. And highly informative. Recommended.
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