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Clare Corbett
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Margie Orford
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When danger lies in the eye of the beholder, what happens when you reject its pull?
Cora carries secrets her daughter can't know.
Freya is frightened by what her mother leaves unsaid.
Angel will only bury the past if it means putting her abusers into the ground.
One act of violence sets three women on a collision course, each desperate to find the truth, when the people they love are not what they seem.
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