• from hashtag to holy: reclaiming the mystical art of manifestation from the clutches of social media [preview]
    Jan 9 2025

    What if everything you’ve been told about manifesting your ideal reality isn’t just oversimplified but fundamentally misguided? In a world where the art of manifestation is often sold as a quick fix for acquiring your dream life, the perfect partner, or material success, it’s time we peel back the layers of this digital deception. The unsettling reality is that the vast majority of digital manifesters are far removed from the profound, transformative practices they believe they are participating in. Together, we’ll uncover the true essence of manifestation—a practice rooted in millennia-old traditions, where the focus was never about 'me' but about dissolving the 'me' into the greater cosmic order. We’ll trace how this sacred philosophy has been co-opted and corrupted by modern notions of self-centered spirituality, where the deep, integral message of non-duality and unity with the universe has been overshadowed by a rush for personal gain and social media validation.

    Join me as we navigate through the history and hijacking of manifestation, from its reverent origins in mystical traditions to its current incarnation on your TikTok feed. By the end of our journey, you’ll have the knowledge to discern true spiritual empowerment from the ego-driven noise, bringing you closer to the authentic practices that can truly transform your life and connect you with the deeper rhythms of the universe. Prepare to challenge everything you thought you knew about manifestation. It’s time to strip away the illusions and return to the roots of real spiritual power.

    TIME STAMPS:


    00:00 – 45:54.03: PART 1 (Introduction to digital manifestation, exploring its contrast with traditional spiritual practices like Islamic tajallī, historical shifts from the Protestant Reformation to the New Age movement, and the impact of psychoanalysis and technology on individual spiritual autonomy.)

    45:54.03 – 01:17:44.00: PART 2 (Analysis of TikTok manifestation methods versus traditional intentions like niyyah, discussion on how digital spirituality often amplifies ego, exploration of reality shifting and its critiques from various mystics, and strategies for identifying genuine versus problematic spiritual content online.)


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    49 mins
  • what if the chains of your past are looser than you think? (breaking free from trauma bonding and repetition compulsion)
    Jan 7 2025

    Have you ever felt like you're stuck in a cycle, repeating the same mistakes, attracting the same toxic relationships, and feeling trapped in your own patterns? In this episode, we’re tackling a topic that affects us all, often without us even realizing it: the invisible chains of our own suffering. Abuse and neglect might feel comfortable because they’re all you’ve ever known. But what if I told you that the chains binding you are looser than you think?


    We’ll dive deep into the hidden forces that keep us comfortable in our suffering. We’ll explore trauma bonds and repetition compulsion – the unconscious habits and behaviors that draw us back into familiar but painful cycles. You’ll learn how these patterns are formed and, more importantly, how you can break free from them.

    This episode isn’t just about identifying the problem; it’s about empowering you with the knowledge and tools to transform your life. I’ll share personal insights and experiences, like how the imagery of the Tarot helped me uncover and understand my own chains. But more importantly, I’ll guide you through practical steps to recognize and lift these invisible constraints.


    You’ll hear about the profound realization that many of us are pacing in circles in an imagined cage, unaware of the freedom that lies just beyond our self-imposed limits. We’ll dissect the concept of trauma bonding and why we often find comfort in our pain, preferring the known suffering over the fear of the unknown.

    By the end of this episode, you’ll be equipped with a new perspective on your patterns and the inspiration to break free from them. Are you ready to unlock your chains and embrace the freedom that awaits? Tune in and take the first step towards a life unbound by the past.


    ✧ Click here to read the original article from my Substack.

    ✧ Click here to watch the video of Ina the bear, stuck in her imaginary cage.

    ✧ Click here to view an image of the tarot card The Devil


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    28 mins
  • introducing my new podcast, “back from the borderline baby.”
    Jan 1 2025

    Motherhood cracked me wide open. It’s not the polished journey you see on Instagram or the step-by-step guides in books—it’s raw, unrelenting, and transformative in ways I never expected. That’s why I’ve launched Back from the Borderline Baby—a brand-new podcast with its own dedicated feed, ready for you to follow now.

    In this episode, I share why this project had to exist. After becoming a mother, I found myself sifting through content that either glossed over the deeper truths or drowned in judgment and extremes. This new podcast is my answer to that—a space to ask harder questions, to wrestle with the emotional and psychological depths of this experience, and to honor the humanity of it all.

    If you’re looking for something real, something that cuts through the noise and speaks to the messy, beautiful complexity of this life stage, this is for you. The first episodes are live now, waiting to meet you wherever you are on your journey.

    TO LISTEN TODAY: Search Back from the Borderline Baby on your favorite podcast player to start listening now, or visit https://pod.link/1788205221 to select your favorite platform.

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    20 mins
  • self-mastery part 2: embracing the journey through life and soul cycles
    Dec 31 2024

    Are you ready to dive deeper into the untapped realms of self-mastery and understand the powerful cycles that govern our lives? In this final part of our two-part series, we’ll expand on the insights from our first episode, where we uncovered the delicate balance between mastering our fate and aligning with the universe's natural rhythms. In this episode, I take you further into the fascinating world of life cycles, exploring the seven-year phases that map out human growth and development. Ever wondered why certain ages seem pivotal in your life? We'll dissect each cycle, helping you identify which phase you're currently navigating and how to leverage this knowledge for transformative personal growth.


    Then, we shift our focus to the timeless wisdom of various esoteric and spiritual traditions, contemplating the profound concept of reincarnation—not to convert you to any spiritual belief, but to offer a broader perspective on life's challenges. Viewing life as a 'school' with lessons to learn can change how we approach our experiences, providing a framework for enduring growth and self-mastery. Tune in to explore how these ancient insights can be applied to modern life challenges, offering you a holistic view that connects your personal journey to the larger cosmic tapestry. This isn't just about spiritual beliefs—it's about using age-old wisdom to cultivate a deeper, more interconnected understanding of life, empowering you to navigate your path with greater awareness and purpose. Don't miss this chance to transform how you perceive and interact with the world around you.


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    1 hr and 12 mins
  • the systemic grooming of a generation (part 1): the unseen puppeteers of the media and pharmaceutical conspiracy [preview]
    Dec 26 2024

    Have you ever questioned why "chemical imbalance" and "mental illness" are the go-to explanations for our emotional struggles? What if these ideas have been deliberately planted in our minds by powerful forces? In this episode, we confront the unsettling reality that millennials and Gen-Z might be the victims of a covert grooming process designed to profit from their pain.


    We'll start by exposing the media's role in shaping our perceptions. The 1980s and 1990s saw a surge in pharmaceutical advertising directly targeting consumers, a move that changed the landscape of mental health forever. These ads, laden with emotional hooks and authoritative voices, didn't just promote pills—they promoted a narrative. We'll dissect how these messages have ingrained the idea that our distress is a medical problem, necessitating pharmaceutical intervention. Next, we delve into the deeper philosophical and systemic issues. Psychological suffering is often a natural reaction to a world that feels increasingly dysfunctional. By pathologizing these responses, systems of power divert our attention from the real issues, maintaining control and stifling change. Through philosophical lenses like existentialism and humanism, and backed by compelling case studies, we reveal how our environment profoundly shapes our emotional health.


    Finally, we'll challenge the foundation of modern psychiatric diagnosis: the DSM. How did this manual become the cornerstone of mental health, and what are its scientific and ethical shortcomings? We’ll uncover the economic motives driving its use and show how diagnoses can act as a form of psychosocial programming, altering our self-identity and reinforcing the biomedical model. By the end of this episode, you might find yourself questioning the very fabric of how we understand and treat emotional suffering. Prepare to uncover the unseen forces that have shaped your perceptions, perhaps for your entire life, likely without your conscious awareness.

    TIME STAMPS:

    00:00 – 38:22.18: PART 1 (Introduction and disclaimer; defining grooming in a socio-psychological context; historical context and evolution of pharmaceutical advertising; psychological impact of media messaging; philosophical critique of marketing strategies; philosophical perspectives on psychological suffering)

    38:27.47 – 01:25:16.78: PART 2 (Psychological suffering as a response to existential challenges and societal dysfunction; systemic benefits and power structures; evidence from sociological and psychological studies; case studies illustrating environmental and systemic factors; historical and scientific critique of the DSM; pharmaceutical and insurance influence on medicalization; psychosocial programming through diagnosing and labeling)


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    43 mins
  • self-mastery part 1: becoming a free agent and understanding the cycles of life
    Dec 24 2024

    Do you ever feel like you’re just reacting to life's script rather than writing your own? Are you tired of the same old self-help advice that doesn't quite resonate with your deeper instincts about the universe? This episode delves into the concept of self-mastery, a potent blend of ancient wisdom and personal empowerment that mainstream mental health discussions often overlook. In our journey today, we'll explore the intricate balance between creating your reality and understanding the seemingly predestined forces of fate. We're going deep into how syncing with the universe’s natural cycles can profoundly influence personal growth and well-being. You'll gain insights into how aligning with these rhythms can help you navigate life's challenges with greater ease and insight. Tune in to discover practical strategies for harnessing these timeless principles to not just cope, but thrive. By the end of this episode, you'll have a clearer understanding of how embracing both the cosmic forces and your personal choices can lead you towards true self-mastery. Join me as we unlock the deeper rhythms of life and learn how to dance to them effectively.


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    50 mins
  • sleeping with 100 men in a day: a psychological deep dive into sex, self-harm, and lily phillips
    Dec 22 2024

    You’ve seen the headlines, maybe even watched the documentary—but what’s missing from the noise surrounding Lily Phillips’ viral stunt is a truly nuanced conversation. In this nearly four-hour deep dive, we strip away the sensationalism to uncover the layers of complexity behind one of the most polarizing stories of the year. This isn’t about villainizing or victimizing. It’s about holding the tension of opposites, the messy intersection of choice, consequence, and survival. From the logistical chaos of Lily’s 100-men challenge to the emotional toll she could no longer hide, we leave no moment unexamined.

    What you’ll hear in this episode:


    A close look at sex as self-harm: How societal narratives and personal trauma intersect in ways that shape our most intimate choices.


    The myth of empowerment: Is the modern feminist ethos failing us? And what does empowerment look like when it’s wrapped in performance and commodification?


    Dissociation and identity: Through Lily’s own words, we unpack the ways detachment becomes a coping mechanism—and a tool for survival.

    This isn’t just about Lily. It’s a reflection on the systems we’ve built, the narratives we perpetuate, and the ways we consume each other in a hyper-connected world. If you’re looking for an unflinching, human-centered take that challenges the way we think about agency, exploitation, and empowerment, this is the conversation you’ve been waiting for.


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    3 hrs and 56 mins
  • new age or new cage? (walking the tightrope of digital spirituality) [preview]
    Dec 19 2024

    In this episode, we’re exploring why more of us are forging our own spiritual paths, stepping away from organized religion and venturing into uncharted territories. We'll examine how this shift empowers us, yet also opens the door to self-deception and the allure of superficial, commercialized experiences disguised as spiritual enlightenment. With the rise of digital platforms, spirituality has never been more accessible or more customizable. From WitchTok rituals at midnight to quick-fix meditation apps, and Instagram influencers who mix timeless wisdom with modern hustle—it’s all just a click away. But in this vast digital landscape, how do we discern what’s genuinely transformative from what’s merely trendy? It's crucial to navigate this space with a critical eye. The freedom to choose our spiritual beliefs also exposes us to the risk of self-deception. How do we keep our spiritual compass steady, avoiding the pitfalls of commercialized enlightenment and superficial experiences?

    We're cutting through the noise to see what spirituality really looks like in the internet age. We’ll explore how this shift toward personal spiritual journeys can empower us, yet also leave us vulnerable to the shallow allure of the spiritual marketplace. If you've ever questioned the authenticity of your spiritual journey or wondered if you're evolving or just ensnared in attractive narratives, this episode is for you. Let’s dig deep and get real about what it means to seek enlightenment in our digital world.

    TIME STAMPS:


    00:00 – 29:05.45: PART 1 (Exploration of modern spirituality's resurgence, balancing individual spirituality with discernment, understanding disenchantment and re-enchantment, rise of personalized spiritual practices via platforms like WitchTok, and historical shifts away from institutional religion towards more personal spiritual experiences.)


    29:05.45 – 01:01:42.02: PART 2 (Discussion on digital spirituality's risks including echo chambers, misinformation, and commercialization; exploring self-deception and the dangers of trivial spiritual practices in online spaces; strategies for balancing digital exploration with credible guidance; tips for discernment and critical thinking in spiritual content; envisioning a balanced digital spiritual framework that supports genuine growth.)


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    34 mins